Just turned 21 :)

I turned 21. whew, the time was really fast. I can’t imagine that a young, crazy child before is already 21, what’s the difference now? I guess, it’s just the number and the ideas. But, the character and personality were just the same. I’m still the fanatical child years ago who basically, do anything what she wants.

I’m really happy for the last year. There are a lot of blessings I received. I graduated in college and just took the Nursing Licensure Exam, and passed it. Yeah, that was tough, the process of the review was damn hell, yet fascinating. I love the hardship that comes with that. I love how we managed to read those huge nursing books and tons of review materials, take a sleep for 2-4 hours a day and then review again (considering, that im still engaged in an extra curricular activities then). 24 hours a day was not enough for us. Though,it was really stiff during those period, we still have time to enjoy even in small little way, like watching a scandal in auditorium. I will never forget how the auditorium looks like during the kathrina-hayden co scandal.. haha.. Really funny. But, it was proven, that it is really pleasant to taste the fruit of your success when you really gave your effort. The feelings were incomparable.

Months after we took the board exam, I look for a job in a call center ( im not against in the idea of working into a line of job which is not related in your course, that’s how it shows if you’re versatile or not) , fortunately, I got hired. I met great people in my first work who turned out to be my BFF hehe. They are all great.. and talking about the job? Hahaha..it was cool being a telephone banker, we handle queries and transactions pertaining into their bank accounts. I will never forget the experience in that account. Coz everyday is a challenge, and it is the survival of the fittest. In that work, I learned how to sleep for a minutes eventhough your taking calls, drinking coffee or soda just to keep awake, mix the hot and cold water to avoid throat problems, eating lots of junkies to beat boredom and to divert the attention, so that you will not bother if you receive lots lots lots of calls. I’am also being cursed everyday by my customers for being a bitch ( yeah, I am a bitch when I need to) And the rest is history.

Also in my first job. I fell in love. I don’t want to elaborate more. But that experience made me realize that I really didn’t knew what love yet means. What’s love anyway? I can’t still answer that question. I thought that’s love when I fall for him, but it is just being selfish and all for play. My friend just told me something that really made me think twice here what she said “ karla, you don’t love him, you just want to prove to yourself that you can snatch him away to his girl, it’s not love friend, it is more on a challenge in your part” yeah, I admit. And also one of my friends told me that there are two hearts that will suffer, mine and his. Because at the end of the day, reality bites, we don’t owe each other, and that’s awful. Love, hum bug.

I’m still waiting for my destiny, someone that GOD just created for me. And I know for sure when that time comes, I can now answer what love means.

I know there’s a lot more to come, I’m still starting to mold my future, it will not end here, and this is just the start. As long as GOD is with me, everything is in control. He’s the director and the script writer, I’m just the actress of his story, trying my best to play the role he had given me and make that story really exceptional. I’m looking forward for another great year :)

Just turned 21 :)

Bye now

Thanks, you made me smile..  - that’s the last few words I told him.

Well, this might be the last day that I will see him here in our office.
He will be transferred in to our other site, which is good for both of us.
Uhmm. He might be at least ONE of the reasons why im still here,
He made me realize that love is not selfish, its not self centered,
LOVE is not jealous; it’s a feeling of happiness. Even though, were
not together ( YEAH, she do have a girlfriend), his presence was enough
to complete my day, the hi’s and hello’s, the chit chatting,
the texting times.. all of those
things made my day fully pleased. But, as I said in my previous blogs,
we cant be together coz his already committed, and yes he definitely
loves her girlfriend. Ouch.. but I just love him and im not asking anything
in return.

I know ive been a sinner during those fling days, but I can’t blame myself
I just fell in love and that’s the only reason why I did that. I might tried to
Destroy their relationship but its not my intention to do that, its only my
Willingness to have him in my life. I love him, but he can’t give it back to me
The way I wanted it to be. But, it’s fine. I love him still.

I always live into this quote when im truly in love, here it goes---
“If loving you is wrong I don’t want to be right, I would rather stay a sinner
Of loving you than not to be able to say I love you” I love the line really
Hehe.. and it does apply to me and to him.

this might be goodbye for us, I don’t know if this is only for now
Or for real. Besides, I don’t want to continue this either
Coz I know it will do no good to me in the long run, I might get hurt
Even more.

Well, back to reality then, face the world with my self again. Waiting for
Another guy who can make me fall in love once more. Hoping that he will be
the one I’ve been wishing and praying for. MY BEST HALF..

Wrap it up

We had a lunch together yesterday.. He’s a type of guy dat so quiet.
Like, you should ask him a question, then that’s the only time he will respond or talk. Say, he’s a substantial guy, definitely he is. But, you know, i
need first to strike the tête-à-tête before you can enjoy the conversation. I should be the one to keep the conversation burning, bec.if I failed to, gudluck if he will talk again. Hehe

keri lang.. my kilig factor khit papano.. peo di nmn gnun ka intense hehe..

last day na to ng pigging peer coach nia sa amin goodbye mr.j, unit mgr ka na nga pla.. hehe.. congrats.. im still crossing my finger, that somehow we will cross path again
( khit nsa iisang floor lng tayo parehas haha).. sana magpansinan pdin tayo..

Gudluck.. at kung mbabasa mo toh, well gud for you, haha.. aop ang ibang sinabi ko dito sa blog na to haha.

Let me tell you this, Justin perlas. My whole batch doesn’t like you, I mean yah youre cute daw, but there’s sumthing na mali daw sayo.. haha.. and im soo blind daw kasi im really into you. They see what my goggled eyes cant see. I dunno.. well. That’s the wonders of this bullshit feelings. I don’t like you nor love you. It’s just that im confuse, so confuse. But one thing is for sure, youre being runs in my mind. It haunts me every now and then, and that’s bullshit. Coz, this weird idea should stop now. Coz it’s not right, and im really having a hard time.

Blame to you, for being the guy that I wish and build castles in the air to be with eversince.

And blame to me, for having this unusual and so confusing feelings that I know will be just useless.. coz we don’t have the same feelings, and the worst? You’re already committed.

Thanks for the whole one week of inspiration; you’re so nice to me. Thanks a lot.

You’re just an ordinary guy that made an ordinary girl experienced the extraordinary feelings even for a quick snap.

let's call him, MR.J

I saw you one time txting at the coach near the back door of our building, I saw you and I said to my gay friend, “he’s cute, nice eyes”. And my friend gave me
unwanted looks and said, “yeah, yummy” hehe.. And then, that’s it. I admired him from then on.

It’s our first week of our DC, and you became one of my temporary coach. We saw your id, and then we find your name. I became soo excited when I found out that you’re the coach of our class even if its just for one day. But, unfortunately, my system suck up, it’s not working. Poor me. I don’t even have the chance to ask you some questions, fine. Im such a loser. Hehe

I kept thinking about him, day after day. My trainer even knows that im into him. My trainer once told me, about his love life, yeah, sad to say he’s already committed, I even saw him wearing like a commitment ring. Okay.. goodbye mr.j. but, let me follow you in fb and fs hehe..

Okay.. when we hit ezone, I saw at my um’s pc that you will be our coach for the first week, but bec. Of the typhoon undoy, you filed a leave just to clean your house. Okay. Im such a loser again. But, fate was really kind, in our 2nd week, you became our coach again.. and yehey. We finally met at last.

One of your friend, became my friend too. And that kolokoy guy, gave you a hint that I like you. And the rest is history.. how I hope we can still have a chance even thou you’re already committed, I like you and im almost there to like you more. So sad..

JPP. Hayst.

B.U.R.N some fats

Me and my mom went to the mall yesterday, when we are soo busy eating those yummy foods that we ordered, i saw my college friends and BOOM they saw me and gave me unwanted looks..

one of them started to shout like."hey karla, you seem soo fat, what's going on?it seems like youre not taking good care of your body now."


oh yes, poor me of having such words hehe,. and 2 of my girl friends, say this in chorus(yes, believe me) "yuck karla, taba mo na... OMG..." and they even acting it out.. like pointing at my face

Well, that's the enough realization i need to heard, in order for me to push thru with my diet regimen.. hehehehe..

yes, its final... I WILL BURN MY FATS.. no chocolates, sweets, extra rice, large fries, icecream, cakes, soda,etc. huhuhu

i will comply with this one, as long as i can ehhehe...

rainy days

I love rainy days. I love to see different kinds of umbrella.. hehe..